Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Merry Halloween

It’s easier to say “I’m such a bad mom that…” and go on to make some joke where everybody laughs over your parenting fail that we all know in the grand scheme of things makes no difference in how your kids will turn out.  It’s much harder to admit “Sometimes I’m a bad mom” and really feel it.  No joke to follow.  Today was one of those days.

“Hudson, do you want to make banana bread with me?”
“I don’t like banana bread.”

He went to the cabinet and pulled out the box of funfetti Halloween cupcakes.
“Let’s make these.”
“Those are Halloween cupcakes.”
“All the time we were going to make it and everyday after school we ran out of time and I had to go to bed.”

Ouch.  Somehow in all the hustle and bustle of grocery shopping, cleaning, needing to check Facebook/e-mail, you name it a whole holiday passed us by.  Somehow even though I say my family and my children are the most important things in my life, my actions didn’t show it.

It would be easy to make fun of the fact that Hudson and I made Halloween cupcakes while he was wearing Santa PJ’s.  It certainly is funny.  But I’m not going to do that today.  I will make the joke about the things that don’t matter.  The fact that Hudson wore the same pair of socks two days in a row or that Kenzie went to daycare with Nutella in her hair won’t make a difference in the long run.  I try to keep my sense of humor about those things.  However, I didn’t take the time to do something that was important to my son and that does matter.  I will strive to do better.

However, I won’t go the other extreme either.  I won't let this define me as a person and as a mother.  I will only go as far as to say that "sometimes I am a bad mom", not "I am a bad mom". Sometimes I am a bad mother because I am always human.

I hope today I made up for my shortcomings.

Merry Halloween, everyone.

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